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After years of thinking about it, I finally got in touch with a speech therapist about feminine voice training. It's been pretty hard trying to do much of any work on my own. I usually blame this on the classical training, but I suspect that there's more behind it than that. Perhaps it has to do with a fear of losing what training I got in school. I'm just not quite sure.
I also spent quite a bit of time today arguing with JD. He's thinking of moving back to CO again, which makes me pretty upset, if I'm honest. This has been going on for so long now that I kinda want to just send him on his way.
The problem here is that he feels that a) we moved too soon or b) he shouldn't have moved in the first place. The fall-out then turns into “Well, I'm going to move back”.
I'm okay with that on the surface, but I worry that our relationship wouldn't survive distance like that. When I'm away from work, we rarely talk and only then via Telegram, despite trying voice.
So I guess I don't have a whole lot of choice other than to wish him well if he does. He's so unhappy out here, sometimes.
That said, neither Vicky nor I are doing terribly well. We had assumed that he would do better out here. Then we had assumed that he would do better on testosterone. Now our hopes lie in psych meds and time.
Other than that, I've just been thinking about writing a lot more. I've been having so much fun and doing so much better with writing being a bigger part of my life. Both Hybrid and my own projects have made me happier than my dayjob has in a long time. You're Gone was well received, and Disappearance got accepted, and I feel like I'm doing alright on that front (to the point where I'm withdrawing into it to get away from stuff).
Looking forward to sprinting again and seeing Jenn.