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Today was kind of a stressful, useless day. I did very little, and a lot of what I did feels useless. I got my TSA pre-check stuff in, which I guess is fine, but learned that I probably should've gotten Global Entry. I got some scaffolding done on my #fifjam/#strawberryjam2 project done, but then got hung up on details. I spent a good bit of time with mistress, but we both got sidetracked and then grumpy at each other later on.
Mostly, though, I hid from JD and Vicky. JD got super angry at Vicky trying to hang some shelving, so he flipped out, sulked, and decided to cancel his trip, while Vicky locked herself in the room and hung the shelves anyway. She's a bit of a noise elemental, so I've just been sitting in bed with headphones on.
This is really painful, because JD mentioned that he's not feeling good about us as a couple, and I'm a) inclined to agree, b) terrified of what that means, and c) angry at him for this being the outcome when the reason “we never do anything together anymore” is because I'm supporting all of us. Which is unfair, but still.
I dunno, I'm worried that I'm crashing.